I know its useless but i wouldn't stop & i can't stop.
Knowing it would just bring me the same result, the same answer.
I don't even know what i'm trying to prove anymore.

Why can't i just forget it?
I might run away.
Escape is not the answer but maybe it might lessen my pain for now.

I dreamt of mum yesterday. She was hugging me. I felt so happy because only in the dream do i get to see her, feel her so real wif me. I wish i wouldn't wake up.
This may sound scary but i felt the strong urge to be wif her.
No, i'm not going to kill myself but if she wants me i might have to go.
Maybe its something beyond my control anymore.

Maybe because i'm not feeling well, i'm starting to imagining things..
Frankly speaking i have not been sick for a long time (touch wood)
The inflammation in my throat is quite mild but irritating. i can't stop coughing due to the itch.
I felt lethargic due to the fever so i juz lie on the mattress & start to imagine things.

~ Just blabbering for now.

Went to Orchard during lunch to collect my HP that i send for repair.

I love this song!
The lyrics are so meaningful it could make you cry.
But this song is really very encouraging.
JJ is really so talented.

林俊杰 - 爱与希望
Lin Jun Jie - Ai Yu Xi Wang
JJ Lin - Love & Hope

大地被摇晃著
da di bei yao huang zhe
The earth shook

天空突然黑了
tian kong tu ran hei le
The sky suddenly darkened

我的心也被震碎了
wo de xin ye bei zhen sui le
My heart was shaken to pieces

下一秒瓦解了
xia yi miao wa jie le
A moment's devastation

泪堆积成了河
lei dui ji cheng le he
tears accumulating into a river

但明天是好的
dan ming tian shi hao de
But tomorrow will be better

我们要坚定著
wo men yao jian ding zhe
We must stay strong

爱~让我们不放弃活著
ai rang wo men bu fang qi huo zhe
Love~ Allows us to not give up to continue living

还要继续和大自然拔河
hai yao ji xu he da zi ran ba he
Continue on battling with Mother Nature

当爱与希望 投射炙热的太阳
dang ai yu xi wang tou she zhi re de tai yang
When love and hope, projects the warmth of the sun

昨日泪光 会随时间都蒸发
zuo ri lei guang hui sui shi jian dou zheng fa
Yesterday's tears will evaporate over the passing of time

别轻易放弃 明天要许更多愿望
bie qing yi fang qi ming tian yao xu geng duo yuan wang
Don't give up easily, Tomorrow make many more wishes

装满了勇气 就更有力量
zhuang man le yong qi jiu geng you li liang
Filled with greater courage so stronger than before

当爱与希望 倒映暖暖的月亮
dang ai yu xi wang dao ying nuan nuan de yue liang
When love and hope reflects back the warmth of the moonlight

再回头望 又是筑好的家乡
zai hui tou wang you shi zhu hao de jia xiang
Next time around, it will once again be a nicely built homeland

我知道未来还有好多路要闯
wo zhi dao wei lai hai you hao duo lu yao chuang
I know that the future ahead lies many obstacles to overcome

我打开了窗 看见了晴朗
wo da kai le chuang kan jian le qing lang
I've opened a window, seeing it clearly (sunny and cloudless)

Let's pray that more people will be saved and those who have lost their love ones to pick themselves up again and move on and be strong.

Name Stella aka Dororo Heicho
Bday 6 may 82
Likes To bite
Wishlist: To open my own shop
To do List:
1. To have a shrot sleep.
2. To bite something each day!
3. To have a shrot sleep again!
4. To keep on drinking
5. To bite again
6. To try not to fall down